F.R.I.E.N.D.S can't save me no more.

today was good. had an early meeting, bought Birthday Letters by Ted Hughes at 20% off because Kino was having a sale(!!), had lunch and realised that avocado juice is my favourite drink- amazing. met Fana who passed me my softball boots and then Fai dropped by my place to give me my vinyl records, all beautifully spray-painted therefore HE. IS. A GENIUS.

training starts tomorrow and I am considering coming down earlier just to throw some balls with Jinli. that is, if she ever makes it. I suppose I shouldn't complain about the free time I have and just try to fill it up with things I couldn't do when I had too many responsibilities to handle. to be honest I cannot wait for Rizan and the NUS girls to finish their exams so we can go out and just talk. without having to worry about project deadlines, telling them something but having other things at the back of my mind (which happens often, believe me).

yes I know, I should be taking a break before I burn out from all the things that shouldn't matter during the holidays. but I want to work because I hate being at home feeling lazy and unmotivated. poetry writing turned out pretty crappy, as you saw from the previous entry. my sister who read it thought I got it off the Internet, maybe because it's been a long time since I wrote something...I don't know. but Oh My God it is shit boring so could someone please throw me a freaking bone here?

boredom kills I tell you. boredom kills.