choices
1) go to NUS, major in you-know-what, even if you-know-who is in you-know-where.
2) go to NIE, or go to Sch of Phys Ed to become a PE teacher
3) retake my As as a private candidate, because there is no chance in Hell you are making me go back to
that school and join a new class.
4) work for a year, then study at SIM.
5) study in MI as a third-year student
6) get married/ commit suicide (because at this age those two are equivalents)
feel free to contribute. list is inexhaustible.
and I'm sorry to be bringing it up at such a stressful time. was talking to Mon about it today, and I've just discovered exactly how petrified I am. at the thought of having to depend my entire future on one flimsy certificate (unless it's laminated, haha!) I have planned the next 10 years of my life based on that one examination, and I'm worried everything will change and I am being robbed of that perfect, perfect dream I'd like to have fulfilled.
it could just be the insecure, frantic, worrisome person in me. I've been too anxious lately, not allowing myself to enjoy each day to the fullest, because I believe we all have a specific amount of opportunities to be happy every single month, and I may have just used up my Happy Time for February. and I still have 8 days left. do you know what that bloody means?
please don't laugh. take me seriously! this is
serious. business.and I worked hard. I know I did. I don't recall putting in that much effort for
anything, being so committed to something the way I'd put in my entire heart and soul to preparing for the As. and you know, if the results don't show wow won't it suck to see all that effort go to waste. I can't imagine myself being anywhere else. which is the worst feeling to have, since I have absolutely no idea how I've fared and even with all those choices up there, I only want to pick the first, and
only the first.
how I loathe not being in control.