they'd never cut me so I'd fit.
my girls are beautiful. for 7 years we stayed together, and they've never once let me be afraid. I grew the most with these ladies. look, look at how grown up we are now. over dinner yesterday when Alawiyah was telling us her stories, I saw myself take a step back and witness how comfortably old our friendship is.
Time will never give you enough. you fight for more- you rush, prioritise, painstakingly come up with elaborate lists of To Dos and Not To Dos because you know Time will never give you enough. when you were young you couldn't wait for it to pass. then you grow old and wish it'd never stop. I have no idea what we did the past 7 years to make things this good and familiar, but we must've beaten it somehow. don't people like to blame Time when they grow old and apart?
yesterday I bought new shoes. I have this Golden Rule that you should never, ever, EVER buy someone else shoes. unless you want them to walk away from you of course. I've actually managed to prove this phenomenon a few times already, so if you don't want to be part of my theory, just do what I say and don't buy shoes for the people you love.
I've decided recently that I like buying myself shoes. somehow I believe because of this I'm always finding myself walking away from my own life- my responsibilities, my religious faith, maybe sometimes my family and friends, all out of my own accord.
then I wonder why.
but no, I never wish to walk away from the two girls, because they are my precious two girls whom I will always love. regardless of who they become in 7 more years, who they date, what they wear, how they think. Time may challenge me and tell me I'm running out. but I'm not afraid, not anymore, not like before.