sure, so sure.

what a good start to a bad week! I had my 102 tutorial just now and had a blast. for those who aren't aware, I was starting to form a really bad phobia for 102 classes because of previous experiences, but today the fear sort of vanished.

proof that the world has gone mad: I spoke like a motorboat in class today- usually I stumble upon my words, saying umm aahh looking frantically around the room hoping for a Saviour. often there isn't any, so people leave class with the impression I am a dumbass. quite right dear friends. but today because CJ made a point to let everyone have a turn, when it came to mine I just rambled on about religious fundamentalists and objectivity in journalism, or something like that. I think it's the pressure of being one of the last few to speak up- you're forever thinking about improving the answer you have in your head. or whatever. the thing is I was feeling very comfortable and as a class, CJ said we were excellent!

wow I really should stop being happy over the smallest things. I like making myself feel better by saying I did this, I thought of that, that I have fun in CS. and I do-the past few weeks have been a blast, and funny how I already feel attached to school though it was never like this with TPJC. I realise I tend to get emotionally affected sometimes, and that's never a good thing. not that I'd rather be blase, but I occasionally have to remind myself to really not give a piss about what people say about me. it really lets me get through my days so, so much better.

I've become more self-actualized since I came here. I know what is happening around me, to me. people say I've always been critical, but now I'm just selectively critical. I pick my battles. Nab and I, on some nights, will pour over the newspapers and talk about each article, tryng to sound smart and saying I can't believe they'd put this on the front page! hahaha we are so irritating, but she lets me be myself and vice versa. I like how we give each other chances. I've learnt so much about myself since I moved out and it feels so good to tell people I'm like this and I'm not sorry, and things like that. I like not having to give excuses so much. I like the space I get in NTU, and my. God. it's amazing what one good tutorial can do to you.