good morning sweethearts- I think I'll love you again today.
I woke up to a rather alarming message from a friend, and from what I read I think something bad is going to happen soon. of course I won't disclose the contents of that message- it's enough for you to only know that I replied with a 'oi don't get close to him he's a freaking venus flytrap!! he will tangkap lalats like you he's damn gatal!!' or something like that. I was kinda chuckling to myself for having thought of something as ingenious as relating that man to a venus flytrap, because let's face it they're about the same- sweet-smelling, beguiling, with a quiet sense of danger that I suppose is attractive.
OKAY. it's attractive. anyway to the said friend, do tread on your thin ice very, very carefully. having mentioned that, I actually think it's a devilishly good thing that's happening to you hahaha. =D
yesterday I learned alot about myself. that despite the many encounters I had to face, I could still end it all on an excellent note. I learned that people can imagine me being a calm yet strict mother (don't know how that came about, to be honest), that Rizan and I have the same...qualities that make us look this compatible, yet nobody really knows what they are. I'm guessing it's our charming smiles, but I suppose you could also say it's because of our alluring eyes? ha ha I am so irritating at 8:52 am.
I also realised I tend to judge people too fast. I used to think I'm not very judgemental, that I allow people to create impressions of themselves for me based on their personality, the things they say, but lately I notice I have a preconceived opinion on so many people in school. I'd like to say that I do honestly try to reach out to new friends every day and that they are the ones who hold themselves back, but who am I kidding right? there are times when I disassociate myself from others as well.
I also hate wondering what people think of us, with Rachel's contagious laughter that echoes, Nadia's funky sense of dressing, Fahimah's random outbursts of speeches in an uncannily accurate Hong Kong accent, Nabila's outspoken and brave personality that shines in class, Sal's calm and quiet disposition, often helping us to get back on track, because I realise we tend to foolishly digress. goodness I am having the time of my life here at SCI, with such colourful people to spend my long days with. now that I've typed all this down, I've decided it doesn't matter what The Others say (see that disassociation there?); my friends and I are comfortable with ourselves and I should just shut up and bathe because I'm getting my laptop in an hour's time.
how odd that I've settled down so quickly in this strange new environment. Oh My God I have officially become part of The People of NTU.