nerd reflex.

I will only love teaching if it's a 3-day/week job. I don't mind seeing these kids every day, so long as I know I have other days to be frivolously spent on completely mindless activities, where my actions do not in any way affect a child's future, and I am seen as a (rather old and naggy) teenager, instead of a confidante, a role model. I think it's great that some people want to be teachers in the future. I'm just saying I am doing a big favour to this country by making it a temporary job, and nothing more.

sometimes I think I should shut up on all that talk, because I might secretly find sincere joy being around children. nothing sexual, don't worry. I suppose it's because today went by pleasantly, where no one screwed up and I even made some classes laugh. they were laughing at me, but a laugh is still a laugh and I am not fussy.

couldn't help but favour some kids more than others. during Reading Period I was sitting with this boy Edham and we were discussing about eclipses and asteroids. shit I know absolutely nothing about, but hey I was his teacher and I was desperately recalling as much as I could from Science class and all those books about space. (that accumulates to a grand total of one book, which I received in P4 for getting good grades.) he looked satisfied with my answer so we left it as that. I told him he should read up on the topic because it's better to learn on his own, than have me tell him everything.

hahahahaha what bullshit not true. but I got away with it because I'm a freaking teacher!

the rest of the classes were a joy to teach. this boy from 6/3 was talking about me to his friend in Mandarin, and I said I understood so he didn't have to try speaking in code anymore. he didn't believe me, so he asked ni shi gui ha? then I said no of course not. and the boy laughed and laughed like it was the funniest thing he's ever heard and everyone joined in. everytime he asked me a question I'd reply in Mandarin, and after every answer the boy would laugh. he's supposed to be the bully of the class, but I won him over. =]

haha and Alawiyah was right- they always rush to help you with books. I had a faithful bunch who followed me everywhere I went today, just to see if I needed assistance. I think they're such suckers, but hey I always appreciate good gesture.

tomorrow we're getting our results and I'm obviously going to revisit the scene of 2004, where I burst out crying even before knowing my O level grades. argh. best of luck to the rest of you.