come home soon

its close to 1 am and my parents still aren't home. I was getting paranoid so I got my sister to call them. turns out they went to a funeral and are having supper at a restaurant as I am worrying and typing. they asked if we'd like some food.

I've been having these strange feelings lately. anxiously thinking that when it's the last time for me to see my parents alive, I wouldn't get to prepare for it. and there's this nagging thought at the back of my mind that it'll be soon. but I think it's simply cos I've had too much time on my hands, and so I've resorted to mindless anxiety over random possibilities.

what's even more bothering is that when I do become busy with work and my own life in the future, I see myself getting distracted from the thought that my parents will leave us one day. and I hate that.

last night I dreamt that I dreamt I had B D E for my As. then I woke up in that dream, and suddenly I am a lawyer defending a friend who was accused of theft. I wonder where all this is coming from. I sense something big is about to happen soon.

Life is too short, really. if you knew you were to go tomorrow, what would you have done today?