the cool air will put your hard heart away
I'm starting to feel the pressure. and the predicted results I'll receive in a few days' time will compound that pressure.
I'd like to say I'm just being paranoid, hoping that solves everything.
you know, I can't wait to get out of this stifling school. 2 months is a short time and after that we will no longer be victims of this education system, one that's tied us down for the last 12 years. only then will we be truly freeeee. but then a part of me isn't too sure about the future, since I don't know how good I am and suddenly I can't seem to recall any past achievements I've made in any part of my life. makes you realise how much you've wasted your teen years away, since you're only left with 2006 to make up for that lost time. I mean I don't want to be 20 and tell friends at parties I can't remember what I did as a teenager. please it's not funny. this is all real and very serious my God don't tell me you're not bothered by it too.
I can't just breeze through the rest of 2005 not knowing where it leads me. of course I have an inkling of what my future is going to be like, but I realise as I grow up my goals are somewhat easier to achieve. this isn't because I've gotten smarter or anything; I've just made them less important and more mediocre.
that aside, I must say I'm now very pleased because my sister and I have Adobe Photoshop on our computer again. I tried downloading the bitlord so I could download the software online, but I guess it didn't work because I have no idea what bittorent is. messing around with your laptop isn't always a good thing, you know. I'm putting aside about an hour to edit my pictures [all 120 of them] and perhaps by Friday I can send them for printing. speaking of Friday, I have a lunch-date with a certain someone and I cannot, cannot wait. =]