yeah, you really got me now

I wish I didn't repel people always. [you walk here, I walk there.] I was hoping maybe someone could see I was just playing games because I don't ever want to deal with a problem this big. I'd rather pretend I don't care and have you take all the blame because according to me you brought this upon yourself. of course I like you. I think you're weird and eccentric and haven't I always liked complicated people? but just because I think you're adorable [in your own twisted ways] it doesn't mean I want to do anything about it. perhaps your constant chasing can make up for my passiveness. it's your call really.

I just think I haven't got the time to put my life on hold and wait for us to grow up before deciding what happens next. I'm not like other girls, and you know that well enough. I like being free and not be tied down to anyone, especially someone who expects too much from the limited capacity of you-know-what that I have. I suck at handling emotions, which is why you realise I'd rather turn away from you than talk about it. then again, what's there to talk about? for all I care this could've just been going on in my head. and in a way I wouldn't mind being called crazy cos I don't want to be sane and still have you on my mind. it's really quite frustrating. and this repelling [most of the time on my part] has to stop.

so I hope you'll be patient and not freak out like the others have. actually I hope you don't do anyting silly and important like confess because I might freak out and pretend I never felt the same way. it's happened before and I'm quite messed up don't you think. but I suppose I don't mind that much because I like getting tangled up in you. =]

[yeah, you really got me now
you got me so I don't know what I'm doing]