mad girl's love song
i wish to write a love song one day.
one that encompasses all feelings of comfort, happiness, and hope.
perhaps when i learn to sing it i no longer will be compelled to associate love with you.
i wish i can play this song i've written over and over again, to remind myself that this strange feeling people have for each other sometimes still exist.
albeit in different forms.
perhaps when i play it i'll remember what it felt like to love in the simplest ways.
i'm tired of not believing.
and sometimes i forget about it altogether.
but when i recall on the past i see an old, familiar smile
and i wonder what made it fade away.
i think about love and i know i don't need it now.
but i know i might want it tomorrow.
and when i do get it, i wonder if it'll even be the same.
i hope They understand when they hear it
i hope They remember too; and recognize their scars are a result of something wonderful.
...maybe the pain will seem worth it when They do.
i know it's difficult to find what i've lost
and i don't need someone to show me how it used to be
i just want to get rid of my old song now, to forsake it, to bury it,
and write a new one.
just for me.
then maybe i'll be truly happy.
what you don't have you don't need it now.