everything seems like the movies
i do not like my big feet.
i have a conflict with them, because i feel they restrict me from doing things like dancing and buying small, dainty slippers.
yet i can't change them because they'll always be a part of me.
i do not like the way my big toes stick out like brown cucumbers, especially when i'm in the mood to wear fancy socks and shoes.
it takes a lot of hard work to dress them up, you know.
and they should start appreciating me spending money to make them look good
like my buying a pair of nice (cheap) flip-flops today.
=]
i sort of like where i am right now.
i feel more controlled and i no longer crave for justifications and explanations from you or anybody.
i realise i don't need them.
and my relapses, as i call them, are nothing to be worried about.
i shouldn't be taken seriously because deep down i know i've genuinely moved on.
so please do not feel sorry for me or feel obliged to make my life 'better.'
although i appreciate the effort, i do not need the favour.
i never asked for it anyway.
i didn't ask to be understood; i just want you to accept the way i am.
What's the worst that I can say? Things are better if I stay So long, and goodnight So long, and goodnight.