will take the right man as naturally as she sings.

today was good. I didn't screw up, didn't fall asleep, got a thanks from The Boss who said I've been doing great.

haha I've never had any man say that to me before.

so I met up with my friends on Tuesday. spent an entire day with those two and at the end of it all my pants felt a little tighter and my face was all flushed, but I was too delirious to mind. I love being stupidly happy- completely out of control, at times wanting to burst into song but being kind enough to refrain from doing so (read title). and it's okay, you know? at one point I wanted to just curl up and die from laughter because I was having too much fun. and it felt weird somewhat because to be frank I don't remember ever being this happy.

we like to say that quite often don't we? that we can't seem to recall some of our best times, perhaps realising it's because we haven't got alot of those. which makes me wonder where I've been all these years, whether whatever I've decided to become is really what I want to be.

they say the A level results are coming at the end of the month. well I suppose it doesn't really matter when exactly I will have to face up to reality. it's like saying smoking kills and retorting that living on its own will kill you, too. so I can finally say I've got my own catch-22. it's actually a nice way of looking on the bright side of something that seems too bleak to be mildly optimistic about.

work isn't as bad as I thought it'd be in the 4th week. I heard once you've passed the first month of anything, the honeymoon period will end and there goes anything rosy. cos you know, that's how it's been for my relationships. but then again what am I saying since I can barely recall the last time I've ever been serious about someone? I told Wan a few days ago I am the least committed person I've ever known, and that it doesn't only apply to work, and he said it's okay.

I think he doesn't get it.