velocity girl

if it weren't for current happenings, I'd be at home sulking the entire day, accosting people to take me out so I can maximise my bitching skills. I know perfectly well how harsh I can be. especially on days like today. yes I understand, we're not encouraged to celebrate. there is no need to go around kissing everyone, buying flowers (that wilt and die eventually, please remember that) and rejoicing on the day a saint was killed.

but hey I guess some people find all that very romantic. and maybe my impression of 14th February has been tarnished somewhat, along with all the other holidays like Christmas, Hari Raya and National Day. so maybe this entry is completely unreliable to begin with.

sometimes I'm irritatingly grumpy.

anyway, I've decided the weather is too gorgeous for me to stay indoors. and I will treat today like any other normal day. I'm going to clean up my room, give Ah Hui a surprise at her workplace, go bank my cheque and then meet the boy for dinner (and so much more haha). I'm still wondering when we'll be getting our results, and I hope you can tell from the look on my face I hope it isn't soon.

see, now that I've started thinking about the A levels I have left myself with no choice other than to ramble on about how worried I am, how sick I feel every single day just speculating those grades, wondering if my definition for interest rates was even close to being half-right. did I finish my paper? I should've written down 'God save the Queen' somewhere- I'm sure I would've scored more points that way. ergh thinking about my Literature paper makes me nauseous. and when I try to recall anything from Geography, I can only manage to picture a certain teacher's face, which just makes me want to hurl in a bucket altogether.

They said I should try to look on the bright side. I've never tried trying so hard in my life.