ready.

you cannot wear too much of your heart on your sleeve. just enough to let them know, to give them reassurance, but be sure to keep the rest for yourself. I think I've been through enough to not be fooled again. I trust him, I trust where we're going. I also trust my experiences, and I will make this as right as I can because I am not going to make the same mistakes again. I'm done with baring my soul (and more) for one person, allowing a man to be with me and having one foot outside the door, just waiting for the right time to leave with as much as he can take from me.

it hurt the most when he knew this wasn't working out before I did.

no this isn't going to be another favourite mistake. I have never felt this sure about anyone. I know, it sounds ludicrous coming from me. but let me handle this on my own, because I trust myself the most. I have more control now that I'm older. I'm better at making decisions. I understand people alot more because I've taken a walk in their shoes. I know what I'm doing, and when I tell you that please believe me.

for so long I thought I was never going to be overwhelmed after Sophan, but there you go, Exhibit A- the clumsy boy who loves me.