givegivegive

everyone will be given the benefit of the doubt. if there is something you think I should know, please be the one to inform me. I absolutely cannot stand any versions of lying, black or white. don't sugar-coat the deeds you've done, just tell them plain and simple. I don't judge. at least, I'll try not to. and that you can definitely believe.

this attempt in trusting everyone may turn out to be a bad idea. I have a feeling it was an easy choice coupled with difficult consequences. which I will try and deal with accordingly, because right now I'm mature enough to take things in my stride. and why shouldn't I? anyone who's been through all that shit is expected to at least leave with a little more wisdom. wisdom that will hopefully make my Next Time more bearable, slightly more pleasant and less of a hell-hole.

how frustrating things have become. hearing news from all sides was supposed to be my idea of forming a balanced opinion, but right now I've just got too much to deal with, and I don't know which one makes more sense. I'm trying to be impartial, and shrug this off because my God, I haven't exactly been a saint so far either. and I still have some skeletons left in my closet.

is this really the right moment to be hanging our dirty laundry? oh can we just pretend this never happened, because now is our time, so it should only be between you and me. fuck the difficult past, the embarrassing doings and the way we've been treated. because if we keep bringing it up and living in events that have already happened, no matter how good or bad, it's gonna be that much harder trying to have a future together. so I'm done with insecurities, because I know where I stand and I'm not afraid at all.